Honestly, I think I'd feel the same way. About the bite, I mean. Even if it was because of something else.
I mean, just because I didn't want to attack my friends or did it because of someone else's influence doesn't mean I didn't. That will always be a burden on me. It was their decision to accept me despite what happened.
[ The response appears to warrant some though or collection of emotions. It's a bit before Gaia responds again. ]
I won't say I'm not frustrated by that answer. But that would defeat the purpose of asking in the first place.
Given I'm asking a lot of you to even think about it, I thought I should at least improve my awareness. Friendship shouldn't be a burden. Much less one someone bears all the responsibility for.
[ After a second another text quickly arrives. ]
Okay I'll admit that made more sense in my thoughts.
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Date: 2022-08-22 08:22 pm (UTC)I mean, just because I didn't want to attack my friends or did it because of someone else's influence doesn't mean I didn't. That will always be a burden on me. It was their decision to accept me despite what happened.
And... who I once was or stood for.
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Date: 2022-08-24 01:23 pm (UTC)I'll think about coming back.
I do have a lot of other responsibilities right now, that's not just an excuse.
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Date: 2022-08-30 11:18 pm (UTC)[ And it's not a lie. ]
If you say you'll think about it, I believe you will. And if you have any other questions or want to talk, you've only to reach out and ask.
[ Sometimes, thinking about things does require more questions so she puts the offer on the table without pressing for it. ]
Regardless of whether you decide to come back, I do have one favor to ask.
Teach me how to fight against you. And others like you.
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Date: 2022-09-01 02:57 am (UTC)You're already starting to move like me. I've seen it in the way you fight at the outpost and little habits.
And even if I had no reason to refuse, you would have to choose between being my student and being my friend.
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Date: 2022-09-01 05:17 am (UTC)I won't say I'm not frustrated by that answer. But that would defeat the purpose of asking in the first place.
Given I'm asking a lot of you to even think about it, I thought I should at least improve my awareness. Friendship shouldn't be a burden. Much less one someone bears all the responsibility for.
[ After a second another text quickly arrives. ]
Okay I'll admit that made more sense in my thoughts.
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Date: 2022-09-04 03:06 am (UTC)I'll come by again when I have time, but I do have a lot of responsibilities now.